Hey, sorry I haven't been on here in forever and a day. I have had alot of stuff going on lately. Well summer vacation is here again :DDD and I am once again working on my art. I'm upset with myself right now because I was stressed out about school (almost failed =OO) so I ate more because of that and gained weight. So now I'm back to staying up till 5am working on art (no suprise) listening to music and drinking water like non stop. I have also broken up and gotten back together with my boyfriends of which we couldn't be happier, but we do it get more fights now, nothing big, but you can't help but wonder what that means in the long term.
I have a horrible sunburn right now on my entire back and butt V__V haha and it makes it très très difficult for sleeping and just doing simple things. Because of this I have resorted to taking pain meds for the buring and prickling and that has given me very odd dreams O_O.
The first one was I was at a school (not my school) and I was with some girl I didn't know and my friend Anna came in and was mad at me about something from somethign long ago and I was trying to explain to her and apologize for it. She finally forgave me and we all three walk outside and its suddenly night time and there's a carnival with all sorts of rides. I get on the feris wheel and I'm with the girl I don't know and I was looking for Anna but couldn't find her. I actually can inturprut this dream haha I believe it was telling me that I have been hanging out with new people that I don't even relaly know and I'm losing the friend that has been there for me for as long as I remember and she's not too happy about it and if I don't get off my little feris wheel I'll lose her for good.
Ack friends can be confusing. One of my friends for instance will constantly forget things and then kidna blame me, but I don't really mind because there are more good times that we have together than we do have fighting. But it does get hard sometimes because we will plan things together then she forgets and I'm left there all alone....or at least wondering where she is.... It's just not that nice...or not thinking ahead I guess... It also gets annoying when you told her about something and then she starts to like it (like a band) and later on she will tell s omeone else and you will be like oh yeah I told you about them and she will go no you didn't I found them on iTunes... -__-
But hey everyone has different personalities and I don't blame her for anything so it doesn't really matter...Oh yeah my besty got a skyrock :DDDD so if you would add her??? haha she doesn't have anyone on her friends list (besides me) yet and so yeah lol (XxXwinterblueXxX)
For some reason I'm super happy! Like if I was a tiny gold fish I would swin the entire ocean!! hahah I'm just like happy! No that's not the right word. ESTATIC!!!!!! That's the right word now haha! I don't know why though lol. Like right now everything seems to be going right in my life. I'm getting a new phone (much needed), I cut my hair myself o.o lol, but it turned out wonderfuly and it's the best hair cut I have ever had lol and I got my bangs the way I wanted them! All my friends are happy so there for I'm happy. I painted my nails like rad (bright pink, electric blue, and neon green) My bday is coming up and just everything is going awesome! If I had a box of new crayons I would colour a mural!!! I would totally burst out laughing and in some random song like Drop of Jupiter by Train or some song like that but I can't because I would wake some one up o.o lol idk I can't stop smileing.
I like these days. Its these days that make life living every singal day and just hoping for one of these days, my friends, and music keep me alive :D:D:D:D:D
Yeah that just a pic of me and friends at some graduation thing lol I'm the one with the strawberry. Picture doesn't really go with this though...oh well
I really don't like complaining or anything, but I'm sorry my ex is annoying the fuck out of me. Like I have not spoken to him in 5 days and I was starting to think thank god he wont call anymore, but just today he called again and I was like ssshhhiiiittt.....So we ....or well he started talking and I was just sitting there listening because I really didn't feel like talking to him. And I was hopeing that he would get the picture and let me hang up or something, but he kept on talking! Then he has the nerve to put me on hold so I just like hung up. Then he calls back and he starts talking again. I have no idea what he is talking about because I just put the phone down and on speaker but turned it down low so I could listen to music. Now seriously unless you are extremely dense don't you think that one would get the idea that I don't want to talk?!?! Anyway so somehow we started having a converstation and he starts picking on my height and calling me stupid and dumb! Like it's not enough that I was already annoyed and mad at him he has to do that. Je n'ai aucune idée. Part of me wants to say it doesn't matter because he's my ex, but it still hurts. He just makes me feel like shit and I don't think I deserve that.
Bleh well sorry if you read all that hahah I just had to rant on something :P lol
K Summer vacation has started literally like a month ago, and for me it seems like it's going by too fast O.O . I know I'm not the only one that feels that way...or atleast I hope I'm not the only one. School starts back on August 11th and honestly I'm not ready to go back. In fact I wouldn't mind never going back. Yes I like to see all my friends and meet new people, but the homework and some of the classes are enought to shoot myself x_x . Not to mention all the rules (especially when you go to a private school it's like a jail or something). You have to wear uniforms, no brightly coloured undershirts or shoes, you have to be at the school just on time or they lock the doors and count you as absent. So basically i'm never at school you could say. I would change schools, but all my friends are at this one and i would hate to leave them. Bleh I hate to keep ranting on about school when I should be happy because I'm on summer vacation, but I'm just really bored and....and nothing. True school maybe the gate of hell, but I'll just make the best of it :D
Oh wow I'm so scattered brained, sorry if this confused anyone because it suer confused me o.o